It’s been a month since my first exhibition opening and it still doesn’t seem easy yet to speak about what happened. How strange it feels, so present and the moment far from sight.
Looking back, the stress and anxiety which overflowed my days prior to the opening don’t feel as real. They seem a rather necessary aspect of the planning, envisioning, acting upon what there is to be done. But a new experience brings along a different layer of those expectations, what to expect and what is expected of me. To think of my pictures as a body of work, almost a physical entity that others may appreciate (or not), talk about and, eventually, buy. Strange strange strange. Still.
Every phase of this exhibition brought to light different variations of self-doubt but, in the end, also helped to get a better sense of what I want to do from this point on, and which path(s) to undertake. Seeing your own photographs displayed along a wall, carefully thought of and placed, admiring the whole Picture – using this metaphor as literally as possible – is a peculiar feeling to describe: as if a warming light, with no focal point to get at, begins to fill you from the inside and out, and you can’t help but stand there, in that very moment, surrounded by your own potential and smile – an endless, larger than life, from-head-to-toe grin.
Till this day – and I’m hoping not to lose it for quite some time – I am grateful for all the support along the way, those who listened to my anguishes and doubts, who believed in going forward, who reminded me every single day of the blessing that is being able to do what you adore, who were there in the night before The Big Day, cutting tape and setting every image to its right place.
Also would like to thank each and every person who showed up on that day, and those who have payed a visit the following weeks, writing words of appreciation in the YINJOY guestbook. And to Wonderfeel, for trusting my work and allowing me to showcase it along their walls. It’s an incredible support system I have, no doubts about that.
To family. To Love. To friends.
(Photo credits: ©Artur Nunes/Marina Calado/Wonderfeel)